Ok, so I'm just gonna start off with the most exciting thing at E3 so far, which is WATCH DOGS.

WATCH DOGS.
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SO GOOD.
I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a next gen game, if not, it is a serious improvement to what is usually out these days. Perhaps it's on the PC though. Hmm. Well, anyway, GODDAMN IT LOOKS AWESOME. There is a device thingy that pretty much interferes with wireless communication, which is everywhere. The game is set not too far into the future, where wireless technology has advanced to standard. That, of course, leads to weaknesses and vulnerabilities on which it seems the main character can exploit. Changing all lights to green to cause a crash your victim is caught in? Genius! I simply cannot wait for this one. Holy mother of dick nipples.


ROUND TWO
ASSASSIN'S CREED 3
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If you have been following me on Tumblr and whatnot, you'd know that I was personally pretty sceptic of Assassin's Creed 3. I kind of didn't like the idea of it being in America. It's not really exotic, you know what I mean? I don't feel as if I'm in a different environment after being in the same place for many movies, games, and whatever. But I'm starting to have a change of heart. The environments change vastly. Environments ARE the new cities! They are climbable and really support full gameplay range. The scenery is gorgeous (when you turn away from buildings) and some city/town things in the demo look brilliant also. I don't like the battlefield they have in the revolution thing though, WAY ugly. Too many terrible colour choices, it ends up looking muddy as hell. But hey, that's not all of the game.
MOVING ON TO THE GAMEPLAY. GODDAMN IT LOOKS FLUID AND AWESOME. Dual weapon fighting? Yes please. I was a doubter, but now I believe. This is brilliant, and I can't wait to fight, kill, and assassinate.


ROUND 3
THE LAST OF US
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INTENSE.
This trailer makes me want to buy a PS3. It looks brilliant and it appears very smart as well. It is very raw in it's survival genre, and looks like a tough one to play (which, to be honest, puts me off a bit, but I'm a weak person who needs to get a bit stronger, so BRING IT). THIS IS A VERY GOOD EXAMPLE, so far, of why videogames should be considered art. It brings out emotions, and it plays with, and may even reveal, the values and morals that the players have. Cool stuff.


ROUND 4
BEYOND: THE TWO SOULS
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Ellen Page. Yes please. I have not played Heavy Rain due to it being on the PS3, but have heard very good things. This looks like a very good follow up game indeed. I have been told it tells the story of an extra terrestrial girl with crazy superpowers. It tells the story of her life, and the struggle she has being a normal person. There is a strong emphasis on the mood and emotion of this videogame, and I am digging it to the max. SO GOOD.
Besides, Ellen Page is in it.

ROUND 5
HALO 4
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I KNOW I KNOW, HALO 4 SHOULD NOT EXIST BECAUSE HALO 3 ENDING WAS CANON, I KNOW. BUT THE ART AND GRAPHICS LOOK SO DAMN GOOODDD! ;A; I will not be playing this as an extension to Halo. Not really. I'll be playing this like any other beautiful game. Appreciative of it's aesthetic, because boy, it has a lot.

TINY SCRAPS OF OPINION LEFT:
Crysis 3 looks awesome. Not much variation from Crysis 2, but oh well. Looks amazing nonetheless.
DMC I know people hate Dante's design. I don't mind it, other than his jacket. Ugh, what a revolting jacket. But anyway, it looks cool. Not sure about getting it, the gameplay isn't really my kind of thing. But gosh it looks pretty.
Gears of War: Judgement Cool. Will be playing with my sister, as tradition, but nothing more than that. Never really liked the over bulk the characters had.
Metal Gear Rising: Revengeance Looks awesome. Might be getting this. Might not. Over the top action looks fun, Ninja cyborgness looks awesome and fun, but not sure about how many flashes there are in the game, might be too crazy for me. Will probably play somehow though.
Tomb Raider Looks great! Though I feel kind of bad even watching it. Lara is in a lot of pain and shitty situations. I kind of feel like I'm watching dominatrix porn.
Star Wars 1313 I know people will hate me, but I never got into Star Wars. I've never seen the original 3 movies, and so I'm not that into it. The gameplay looks pretty though. Surprisingly good. Is it next-gen?


Will maybe update when the next batch of videos come out, provided they're interesting. What did you guys like?

May the Winds of Fortune Blow Up Your Skirt,
Cheese

The internet is being slow again. And that's the thing, it's only slow on my modem. The same exact modem with the same exact plan in the same exact location with 4-5 more connections than mine has faster internet.
This brings back the theory I have made as a reaction to many events in my life. It's called the "Technology Hates Me" theory. If you hang out with me often enough, you'll hear this plenty of times.

It works like this.
>Subject Cheese purchases/acquires some form of technological object/service.
>Subject Cheese gains information and knowledge of said object/services and learns of their capabilites
>Subject has the expectation that they will perform according to said capabilities and operate to the degree they should
>Subject uses technological object/service.
>Subject experiences disappointment in it's failure to reach said capabilities
>Subject experiences severe cases of distress, anger, frustration and sorrow.

Example one.
My laptop has more than enough capability to play Mass Effect 2. It surpasses not only the required settings, but also the recommended. It cannot. It lags to an unplayable state.

Example two.
I believe my laptop was bragged on to have a LOT of battery power. I think it was 4-5 hours? I have 2-3 hours.

Example three.
My internet is suppose to get speeds of up to 10mb/s. I realize there's an "up to". But also know that the average "low" speed everyone is complaining about in the forums is 3mb/s. I get 1.2mb/s to 0.3mb/s.

Example four.
My internet connection, though having 4/5 bars of connectivity, often simply ceases internet connection. Not the connection to the modem, just the internet. (Though it often loses connection to the modem too, just to watch me drown in my own tears. Keep in mind that the modem has not moved. NOTHING HAS CHANGED. It's just that some God of Technology said "You know what'd be really cool? If I tortured the shit out of this kid. Like.. So much. FREAKIN' HILARITY WILL ENSUE." But I digress.) This also occurs on my Xbox 360. I have full connection, but I often get disconnected from Xbox Live anyway.

Example five.
My phone often does not give me the ability to read my newest messages from the list. (If I ignore your texts, this is most likely why). There isn't a problem with the hardware, I don't think. It still works most times. But sometimes the universe just thinks I'm too nice of a guy and tries to pummel my brain into negativity.

Example six.
My iTouch. I know there is a big crack on the screen (from falling like.. a metre or less. Terrible reason to crack, you should be ashamed, iTouch) but it doesn't even affect anything on the screen. It works perfectly. EXCEPT maybe the fact that it will hardly ever turn on when you click the home button. You need to click the Lock button instead. This, however, isn't a good fix for when you want to go to the home screen quickly, and the button just doesn't work. Since we're on the topic of iTouch[es], none of my apps will update. None of them. No, they all just fail. THEY FAIL LIKE THEY FAIL TO ACHIEVE MY RESPECT. I HATE YOU APPS. I HATE YOU TO DEATH.

Example seven.
My Xbox 360 controller's batteries. They're supposed to be charge and play. You're supposed to be able to CHARGE THEM. NOPENOPENOPE. As a result, I have concluded that the batteries will never charge and are therefore simply unnecessary weight. I have fixed this problem by removing the battery, and connecting only the charging wire. However, that destroys the point of a wireless controller.



The point is that I hate my internet and you should too. The end.


Also, since the internet is constantly being stupid, I'm starting to believe the world just doesn't want me on so often, so I am considering just lowering my usage of the internet to only when it is working fine.

_{Also, I went to a pop-culture convention today and it was really grand and I saw some really awesome cosplays and saw some very cute/pretty girls. Also the universe realised I got a bit too happy and made me have a heavy nosebleed out of nowhere.}


May the Winds of Fortune Slap You in the Face Gently But Fast Enough To Hurt A Bit
- Cheese

Hey guys!

I haven't typed in here in a while. I guess I'm still kind of afraid people don't really want to hear/read my speak words of poop and poop. But I was all like "WHY NOT LELELLE", so I'm gonna try update with things and words.

First of all, to quench questions I just remembered I got second last journal, no/yes, there were a couple of attractive female intakes, but non of them were really appealing to me. WELP. TIME TO FOCUS ON STUDIES. (Not really, I still get distracted by girls. Damn you and your warm hugs and beautiful radiant sunshines. You're ruining my lovely cold, distant study time. Goddamn it, this is why I can't have nice things). But that's ok, a lot of my friends seem to be searching for the same thing, and most, if not all, deserve them much more than I do. How I'd love to just step out and enjoy myself, but sometimes it gets a little tough, you know? I'm dandy now, but there are times I get hit with random depression. SUCKS.
Speaking of school, my assignments are SWAMPING THE HELL OUT OF ME HOLY HELL I WANT TO BREATH. Assignments WEEK after WEEK. My GOD, it's hard. (Cept the Fundamentals of Drawing unit. I kind of get away unscathed with that one.) But yeah, it's been tough, so sorry for not updating DA often. :c I TRY.

Now, what else...

I moved to a new place! I told my friends that when they moved out from their area, they should look for places I might like as well, since we'll be moving in. Unfortunately, they chose one of the dodgiest suburbs in Melbourne, Footscray, due to the rent being cheap. So if I don't reply, I was probably beaten to death/stabbed. So that's lovely news. <3
It struck me with a lot of stress, and I was kind of angry at them for a very long while. That was, until they suggested sparring (being in an apartment filled with manly d00ds results in some pretty masculine activities. i.e. fighting, talking about girls, arm wrestling, and trying to juggle hammers.) Anyway, I wasn't able to spar my friends well because I didn't want to hurt them, so I ended up competing with the one who practices it all the time.
I failed.
I failed a lot.
All my manly pride drained instantly as I was beaten down. ;A; Not a fun time for me, nonono. But at least I know that I'm weak instead of blindly rushing into physical contact with a false sense of strength. (Though he did mention I did better than expected. Though that was probably because I was angry from being punched in the face so many times an insisted on continuing to try punch his face).

Hmm...

No.
There doesn't seem to be much else going in my life at th-WAIT NO THERE'S THAT THING WITH THE GOVERNMENT FFFFU-. Ok. So in Australia we have this thing called Youth Allowance, which utilizes tax money to keep youth/students keeping afloat as long as they need it enough. Most of my friends here are just using their Youth Allowance to keep them afloat and to have some spare change for their own stuff. Meanwhile, my parents are funding me (so sweet of them, you have no idea how much gratitude I have for that holy shiznit I love them) so I can keep afloat over here. So I tried very hard to lift that burden by having some Youth Allowance on my side. Nope. I was rejected my claim for the third goddamn time for my parents not handing documents in time (because they're working every day you can submit it at the centre), and now they've started asking for ridiculous things I don't think my parents have. So, none. I've contemplated getting a job, but school pressures are getting kinda crazy, and working in a place like Footscray doesn't seem like the BEST idea. UGH. STRESS. HARD.
But we'll manage. I love my family and I trust them to tell me whenever they're finding it a bit difficult. I've told them I can move back any time.

But moving on from that, what else is there to talk about? Hmm.

There was that time I enetered a competition to win a Mass Effect 3 gun replica. You see, the aim was to design an amazing piece of armour for Shepard to wear. But the criteria was that it had to have the videogame store's logo on it somewhere (Remember this.) So I enter, and get a hell of a lot of likes. I beat a lot, if not all the competition. I want to win this for not only the gun, but for the Turtlebeach headset you get with it, which I needed due to mine breaking. Even if I won runner up I could still get one. But no. Not even runner up. AND THE WINNER DIDN'T EVEN USE THE GAME STORE LOGO. I ADMIT IT WAS GOOD, BUT IT HARDLY A FUNCTIONAL ARMOUR DESIGN, AND HARDLY FITS THE MASS EFFECT UNIVERSE AT ALL. BUT URGH. URGGGGHHHH. GODDAMN JUDG-you know what, I'm ranting. I'm ranting like an angry person. It is rant worthy, but I don't think you'd like me swearing about something that I could be wrong about. But seriously. Not even runner up. Some guy who stuck a flag looking thing on Shepard's armour was one of the runner ups. I can't even. I don't even know. I. What. How.
So yeah. Gotta go get myself a new headset with the limited money I have. Maybe not even get a replacement at all. Sucks. It was my birthday gift.

Anyway, uhhh..

I've recently discovered that I'm actually more easily amused than I thought. People tend to be all "UGH CALL OF DUTY SUCKS" or "COWBOY VS ALIENS WAS A TERRIBLE MOVIE AND NO ONE SHOULD EVER WATCH IT" where, to be honest, I found them fun. They had flaws, yes, but I enjoyed myself. And, I dunno, I guess I feel kind of stupid when people are looking at the deeper mechanics of the subject to conclude their judgements, whereas I just skim the surface. Do you guys ever feel like this? :C

On that note, I will list down some songs I think are really lovely and you can listen if you want.
Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen (SO GODDAMN CATCHY HOLY WOW)
I Don't Like You - Eva Simons (DANCE DANCE DANCE itsactuallyquitenice)
Let Me Die in the Morning - Holy Oak (Kind of soothing. )
No it isn't - Plus 44 (Beautiful desructive poetry)
Feel So - Boxcar Racer (Angsty)
We Are Back (The S Remix) - The Boomzers (SO DANCEY, but only at the chorus. SO GUD THO)
Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine (I always have to refrain myself from singing the chorus. SO GOOD)

I don't believe there's anything much else to tell you. Life is pretty drab lately, but that's ok. At least it's not terrible.
Also, here's a blog of a beautiful chiseled Melbourne friend of mine. If you're a fan of handsome, skinny, formal-fashion boys, you should mingle around here. They often tell of my adventures with him. (P.S. My codename is Shadowfox. A nickname I had built for me because I jokingly introduced myself as "Shadowfox 69", and a very influential student was close enough to hear it.) LINK[link]

Anyway, I'm going to head off to sleep now. Goodnight, my sweets. <3

May the Winds of Fortune Form A Strong Gust Shaped Like A Fist And Then Uppercuts You Sending You Flying But Covered In Fortune,
Cheese

P.s. Watched Legend of Korra. SO GOOD. SOOO GOOOODDD. Expect Fan art. <3 Also played lots of Mass Effect 3. EXPECT FANART.

A lot of my friends feel upset over the fact that they're single on Valentine's Day, or Single Awareness Day. My question is, why? Valentine's Day is about love, but what is love? (Baby don't hurt me. Don't hurt me, no more.) In my experience, love is not holding hands and kissing. No, those are signs of affections. Mere symbols of their romantic interest in one another. Love, in my opinion, is a very high level of emotional acceptance and appreciation. Yes, you need love, my S.A.D. celebrators, but you want affection.

My sister had always told me, to love another, you must first love yourself (spoken like a true fortune cookie.) How are you able to know you're loved if you do not share your lover's beliefs? You will most likely fall under the trap of "I'm not good enough for her/him. They deserve someone else." So to all the S.A.D. people, look for love on Valentine's Day, but make sure it's for yourself before anyone else. No idea how? I'l give you a hint. Chocolates are on sale on Valentine's Day.

Treat yourself! Eat those delicious chocolates on sale. Why spend it on someone else if you know you'd love to eat it? Valentine's Day makes people feel warm and happy, so why don't you get to? Eat dem ice-creams, play dem videogames, eat dem favourite stuff. Today is about love. Begin to love yourself, enjoy how awesome you are, and everything will be bene.

That said, my Valentine's date is Liara T'Soni. <3

Reposted from my Tamblargh.



MY VALENTINE'S/AWESOME/I KICK ASS DAY PLAN.
Ok, so it wouldn't be fair if I said all that without doing any of it for myself. So I'll share with you what I have done so far, and what I plan to do.
>Plan an awesome day with best friend where we would stop trying to eat healthy for a day, and eat delicious but shitty food.
>He tells me we're gonna feel sick as shit, but it's going to be awesome.
>Go to sleep
>Wake up
>Start listening to awesome upbeat music
>Drink a Venti (Maximum) sized caramel frappuccino from Starbucks
>Feel sick
>Remember what best friend told me and laugh idiotically as I wander the streets of Melbourne
>Get a Double Crunch combo with a small pepsi and chips from KFC
>Feel sick again
>Eye a cute looking girl (Because I'm single and I can do that. Feelsgoodman.jpg)
>Order 2 packets of fun sized chocolates on sale
>Eating them at home, feeling awesome.
>Went to the early meet-up with Gunnarolla and Songs To Wear Pants To but I panicked and felt socially awkward so I didn't approach and went back. Feelsbatman.gif
>For dinner had a summer value meal at Hungry Jacks (The rest of the world calls them "Burger King".) Which was a small burger, frozen coke and chips. Feeling kind of sick.

WHAT I PLAN TO DO LATER:
>Play Mass Effect 3 Demo when it finally is uploaded in Australia
>Watch Gunnarolla and Songs To Wear Pants To going on their Australian tour
>Eat icecream
>Feel sick but awesome
>Share awesome stories with best friend

Like I said, friends. Valentine's can be great if you make it. As can any day, really.

Back in Melbourne and I'm already missing all my Perthian buddies. :c SADNESS OVERWHELMS MY BEING.

Anyway, I seem to be out of things to draw and paint. That's a lie, I feel like Mass Effect fanart, but I don't want to clog you guys with things you may not want to see. Maybe I should just do them in my free time anyway. Maybe.

School starts next week, and I'm kind of excited. It's nice to be in an environment with like minded gamers. <3 Some people are also looking forward to seeing if there are any cute girls in the new intake. To be honest, I kind of hope there will be, but I just know it's gonna be a sausage fest. Not that it's bad, as long as they aren't douchey poopsicles, I should be fine with all of them.

OO! This trimester I'll also be doing an intro to life drawing. >3 Hopefull skills will be improved. Hopefully.

Also, recently my school had a little bit of an exhibition of student's work, and I came second for best art. I checked out the winner though, and yes. I had no chance. This guy is a freelancer. A FREELANCER. WHY IS A FREELANCER GOING TO SCHOOL IN THE FIRST PLACE. xDD But yes, still feels nice to come second. <3

Mass Effect 3 demo is out soon too. My valentine's will be the demo. And Femshep. And Liara. Oh god Liara. <3

But anyways, I don't have much else to say. So. Hello. <3

May the Winds of Fortune Play With Your Hair a Little Then Smack You Down,
Cheese

And that boy's online identity was.. CHEESEBOY18193. 8I

First of all, thank you for all the birthday wishes on my profile. I don't know how you guys were able to tell it was my birthday, but naww you're so sweet. <3

Second of all, I'm 19 now, and I'm no where near where I wanted to be artistically. :C Still, I have plenty of years left in my life, and a bright future. <3
It is pretty scary to be 19 now, since 18 tends to be associated with high school. 19 just seems more mature and sensible. xD I will be forced into being more responsible and whatnot, due to me living alone in Melbourne, but I do hope I remain the person I've established myself to be. I'm quite fond of my current ways. xD

Anyways, here's to surviving another year! *clinks glass of orange juice*

May the Winds of Fortune Pierce Your Personal Barrier and Give You Goosebumps,
Cheese

If you are ever down, whether worried or depressed, here are some little observations I have made in my lifetime that may help you. Note that these are observations, I do not stand tall claiming that my beliefs are truest of all truths, they are merely things I've noticed and have integrated into my own beliefs.

1) An optimist and a pessimist will always call themselves a realist. Chances are, you aren't one. So instead of worrying about something you 'know will happen', realise that whatever you think will happen isn't the only way things can end up.

2) You will never know the future (unless you're a psychic who has proven time and time again that your predictions are always true. Then that's just impressive). The past has happened, it is recorded in your memory. The present is where your feet are standing. The future is a fogged empty space. Whichever path you walk, whatever action you take, you forge a new piece of the future, one that immediately becomes the present, and then the past. Therefore, a person who says to themselves "My life is spiralling downwards, I just know this and that will happen" is, in their mind, constructing a prediction, and image of the future, forged by opinion and reasoning. When you're upset, what you believe will happen is never set in stone. When you're upset, your "I-am-a-realist" side will tell you to panic, because a constructed image of reality is heading your way. Realize that the future is made of chance and reasoning, and that anything can happen. That image of the future you made up? Yeah. That's a picture of  the future you made up. It's not the future. Due to this, faith can always still be applied. Hope is always still valid. Instead of searching desperately what the face of the future is like, look at your feet, and walk whichever direction you want. You will create a path by walking one.


3) People who claim that no-one cares about their problems have most likely never asked someone to simply sit down and listen to them. A lot of the time, I have managed to help a lot of people through their hard times by simply asking what is wrong, and simply sitting down to listen. They tell me I've helped them greatly, but in reality, all I did was sit and listen. No, the person who helped them was themselves. Know why? They admitted themselves to seek help, to tell someone their problems. They allowed it, they helped themselves.

4) Seeking for help is not being weak, nor is crying. For some reason, people have begun to associate crying and/or calling out for help is weak, and therefore should be avoided. This is like telling a dog that continuously bites and electric fence that he shouldn't ask his pals how to get past the fence, and should instead keep biting until the fence has broken, so it can be a bigger dog and gain respect from his peers. How is that dog to know that there's a gate 7 metres from him? As for thinking crying is a weakness, that's just stupid. Imagine you just slapped a woman in the face because she was crying at her father's funeral. Now imagine you kicked a kid for crying when he fell off his bike and grazed his knee. Now imagine yourself punching yourself in the gut because of whatever you were last sad about. You're punishing yourself for letting out a plea for help, a signal of distress, and a release of emotion. You have reasons to cry, so cry. Be human. A million robots want what you have. Feelings. Sorrow is equally important to anger and happiness. Never be ashamed of crying. Never be ashamed to ask for help.

5) When you burst into a sudden deep depression but don't know the reason, it is most likely because it is more than one problem. The difficulty of this is that unlike a big and major problem, people often believe their smaller issues are not worth anything, or some kind of burden to people, and they keep them bottled up. Due to this, they essentially constantly blow air into an invisible balloon of problems. This is a big problem because they're like ninjas, they come out of nowhere, but hit you VERY hard. Realizing this, try to let someone know of your small issues. Talking it out is more helpful than you believe. And no, those small issues of yours are more dangerous than you think. It is most often not a burden at all to anyone to let them know.

I can't think of any more right now, but I think I have more. I'll update later if I think of any more, but these are pretty much the biggies.
Moral of the story: Don't be afraid to cry. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Stop looking for what will happen, look at what you can do.
In the wise words of the Assassin's; "Nothing is True. Everything is Permitted." Your worries of the future are not true. Any action you take to forge the future can be done. (Oh god it feels so good to apply Assassin's Creed to things)

Now, look at me in my virtual imagination-constructed face. You are doing well. Cry, laugh and scream. You're meant to.

Now, think of your friends and family. They are there for you.

Now, imagine them on a big spider web (Unless you hate spiders. Then imagine it's a trampoline.) Whatever you do will affect them. When you're happy, they should and will know it. When you're down, they should and will feel it.

Now, imagine my virtual face again (If you'd like, give me a super hot body, but make sure it doesn't distract you from what I'll say next). By reading this super long post, you've demonstrated that you care about being a better person. By doing so, you have proven to be an amazing one. If you're smiling right now, look at yourself in the mirror. That person that you see is why people would love to help you. Why people love being with you, and why you are an amazing person. You are a shining star.



Have an amazing day/night. <3

Hey guys~ so, I can't say much due to me being on my iPod as I type this, hence the typos. Anyways, just making a journal to explain my absence. You see, me and my family have gone to Malaysia for a week as a little holiday, something We haven't done as a family in years. though I was born in Australia, my parents are both from malacca, Malaysia, do its pretty interesting to be with them when they return home. Lots of heap add things here, so as a Christmas present, my parents gave the kids $500 pocket money, which is slowly depleting the more shopping malls we go to. xD the weather is humid and hot, as it's summer all year, but I'm coping. <3

But anyways, imma head off now. Just letting you know where I've been.

May the Winds of Fortune Attack Your Lungs,
-cheese

Hey guys~

Sorry I haven't updated you guys in a while! I've been playing Skyrim and catching up with my Perth friends. Which reminds me.
I'm back in Perth. <3

It's a nice feeling to go back home. <3 And, you know, not suffering from incurable "I'm a uni student with no money" syndrome. It's terrible, really.
As a gift, my sister ~kpplouski bought me Skyrim to welcome me home. <3 (It's a goddamn fantastic game. So damn good. Oh god so good.)

There really isn't much to say. :c Everything is pretty much the same, other than the transportation of me across the country. Really, I thought I just owed an explanation as to why I haven't uploaded anything in a while. I've also got a bit of an art block, so that's kinda poop. I'll see what I can do. :3

Anyways, I'm running out of things to say now. So... Toodles~

May the Winds of Fortune Eat Your Oxygen and Replace It With More,
Cheese