Ok, so I'm just gonna start off with the most exciting thing at E3 so far, which is WATCH DOGS.

WATCH DOGS.
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SO GOOD.
I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a next gen game, if not, it is a serious improvement to what is usually out these days. Perhaps it's on the PC though. Hmm. Well, anyway, GODDAMN IT LOOKS AWESOME. There is a device thingy that pretty much interferes with wireless communication, which is everywhere. The game is set not too far into the future, where wireless technology has advanced to standard. That, of course, leads to weaknesses and vulnerabilities on which it seems the main character can exploit. Changing all lights to green to cause a crash your victim is caught in? Genius! I simply cannot wait for this one. Holy mother of dick nipples.


ROUND TWO
ASSASSIN'S CREED 3
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If you have been following me on Tumblr and whatnot, you'd know that I was personally pretty sceptic of Assassin's Creed 3. I kind of didn't like the idea of it being in America. It's not really exotic, you know what I mean? I don't feel as if I'm in a different environment after being in the same place for many movies, games, and whatever. But I'm starting to have a change of heart. The environments change vastly. Environments ARE the new cities! They are climbable and really support full gameplay range. The scenery is gorgeous (when you turn away from buildings) and some city/town things in the demo look brilliant also. I don't like the battlefield they have in the revolution thing though, WAY ugly. Too many terrible colour choices, it ends up looking muddy as hell. But hey, that's not all of the game.
MOVING ON TO THE GAMEPLAY. GODDAMN IT LOOKS FLUID AND AWESOME. Dual weapon fighting? Yes please. I was a doubter, but now I believe. This is brilliant, and I can't wait to fight, kill, and assassinate.


ROUND 3
THE LAST OF US
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INTENSE.
This trailer makes me want to buy a PS3. It looks brilliant and it appears very smart as well. It is very raw in it's survival genre, and looks like a tough one to play (which, to be honest, puts me off a bit, but I'm a weak person who needs to get a bit stronger, so BRING IT). THIS IS A VERY GOOD EXAMPLE, so far, of why videogames should be considered art. It brings out emotions, and it plays with, and may even reveal, the values and morals that the players have. Cool stuff.


ROUND 4
BEYOND: THE TWO SOULS
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Ellen Page. Yes please. I have not played Heavy Rain due to it being on the PS3, but have heard very good things. This looks like a very good follow up game indeed. I have been told it tells the story of an extra terrestrial girl with crazy superpowers. It tells the story of her life, and the struggle she has being a normal person. There is a strong emphasis on the mood and emotion of this videogame, and I am digging it to the max. SO GOOD.
Besides, Ellen Page is in it.

ROUND 5
HALO 4
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I KNOW I KNOW, HALO 4 SHOULD NOT EXIST BECAUSE HALO 3 ENDING WAS CANON, I KNOW. BUT THE ART AND GRAPHICS LOOK SO DAMN GOOODDD! ;A; I will not be playing this as an extension to Halo. Not really. I'll be playing this like any other beautiful game. Appreciative of it's aesthetic, because boy, it has a lot.

TINY SCRAPS OF OPINION LEFT:
Crysis 3 looks awesome. Not much variation from Crysis 2, but oh well. Looks amazing nonetheless.
DMC I know people hate Dante's design. I don't mind it, other than his jacket. Ugh, what a revolting jacket. But anyway, it looks cool. Not sure about getting it, the gameplay isn't really my kind of thing. But gosh it looks pretty.
Gears of War: Judgement Cool. Will be playing with my sister, as tradition, but nothing more than that. Never really liked the over bulk the characters had.
Metal Gear Rising: Revengeance Looks awesome. Might be getting this. Might not. Over the top action looks fun, Ninja cyborgness looks awesome and fun, but not sure about how many flashes there are in the game, might be too crazy for me. Will probably play somehow though.
Tomb Raider Looks great! Though I feel kind of bad even watching it. Lara is in a lot of pain and shitty situations. I kind of feel like I'm watching dominatrix porn.
Star Wars 1313 I know people will hate me, but I never got into Star Wars. I've never seen the original 3 movies, and so I'm not that into it. The gameplay looks pretty though. Surprisingly good. Is it next-gen?


Will maybe update when the next batch of videos come out, provided they're interesting. What did you guys like?

May the Winds of Fortune Blow Up Your Skirt,
Cheese

The internet is being slow again. And that's the thing, it's only slow on my modem. The same exact modem with the same exact plan in the same exact location with 4-5 more connections than mine has faster internet.
This brings back the theory I have made as a reaction to many events in my life. It's called the "Technology Hates Me" theory. If you hang out with me often enough, you'll hear this plenty of times.

It works like this.
>Subject Cheese purchases/acquires some form of technological object/service.
>Subject Cheese gains information and knowledge of said object/services and learns of their capabilites
>Subject has the expectation that they will perform according to said capabilities and operate to the degree they should
>Subject uses technological object/service.
>Subject experiences disappointment in it's failure to reach said capabilities
>Subject experiences severe cases of distress, anger, frustration and sorrow.

Example one.
My laptop has more than enough capability to play Mass Effect 2. It surpasses not only the required settings, but also the recommended. It cannot. It lags to an unplayable state.

Example two.
I believe my laptop was bragged on to have a LOT of battery power. I think it was 4-5 hours? I have 2-3 hours.

Example three.
My internet is suppose to get speeds of up to 10mb/s. I realize there's an "up to". But also know that the average "low" speed everyone is complaining about in the forums is 3mb/s. I get 1.2mb/s to 0.3mb/s.

Example four.
My internet connection, though having 4/5 bars of connectivity, often simply ceases internet connection. Not the connection to the modem, just the internet. (Though it often loses connection to the modem too, just to watch me drown in my own tears. Keep in mind that the modem has not moved. NOTHING HAS CHANGED. It's just that some God of Technology said "You know what'd be really cool? If I tortured the shit out of this kid. Like.. So much. FREAKIN' HILARITY WILL ENSUE." But I digress.) This also occurs on my Xbox 360. I have full connection, but I often get disconnected from Xbox Live anyway.

Example five.
My phone often does not give me the ability to read my newest messages from the list. (If I ignore your texts, this is most likely why). There isn't a problem with the hardware, I don't think. It still works most times. But sometimes the universe just thinks I'm too nice of a guy and tries to pummel my brain into negativity.

Example six.
My iTouch. I know there is a big crack on the screen (from falling like.. a metre or less. Terrible reason to crack, you should be ashamed, iTouch) but it doesn't even affect anything on the screen. It works perfectly. EXCEPT maybe the fact that it will hardly ever turn on when you click the home button. You need to click the Lock button instead. This, however, isn't a good fix for when you want to go to the home screen quickly, and the button just doesn't work. Since we're on the topic of iTouch[es], none of my apps will update. None of them. No, they all just fail. THEY FAIL LIKE THEY FAIL TO ACHIEVE MY RESPECT. I HATE YOU APPS. I HATE YOU TO DEATH.

Example seven.
My Xbox 360 controller's batteries. They're supposed to be charge and play. You're supposed to be able to CHARGE THEM. NOPENOPENOPE. As a result, I have concluded that the batteries will never charge and are therefore simply unnecessary weight. I have fixed this problem by removing the battery, and connecting only the charging wire. However, that destroys the point of a wireless controller.



The point is that I hate my internet and you should too. The end.


Also, since the internet is constantly being stupid, I'm starting to believe the world just doesn't want me on so often, so I am considering just lowering my usage of the internet to only when it is working fine.

_{Also, I went to a pop-culture convention today and it was really grand and I saw some really awesome cosplays and saw some very cute/pretty girls. Also the universe realised I got a bit too happy and made me have a heavy nosebleed out of nowhere.}


May the Winds of Fortune Slap You in the Face Gently But Fast Enough To Hurt A Bit
- Cheese

Hey guys!

I haven't typed in here in a while. I guess I'm still kind of afraid people don't really want to hear/read my speak words of poop and poop. But I was all like "WHY NOT LELELLE", so I'm gonna try update with things and words.

First of all, to quench questions I just remembered I got second last journal, no/yes, there were a couple of attractive female intakes, but non of them were really appealing to me. WELP. TIME TO FOCUS ON STUDIES. (Not really, I still get distracted by girls. Damn you and your warm hugs and beautiful radiant sunshines. You're ruining my lovely cold, distant study time. Goddamn it, this is why I can't have nice things). But that's ok, a lot of my friends seem to be searching for the same thing, and most, if not all, deserve them much more than I do. How I'd love to just step out and enjoy myself, but sometimes it gets a little tough, you know? I'm dandy now, but there are times I get hit with random depression. SUCKS.
Speaking of school, my assignments are SWAMPING THE HELL OUT OF ME HOLY HELL I WANT TO BREATH. Assignments WEEK after WEEK. My GOD, it's hard. (Cept the Fundamentals of Drawing unit. I kind of get away unscathed with that one.) But yeah, it's been tough, so sorry for not updating DA often. :c I TRY.

Now, what else...

I moved to a new place! I told my friends that when they moved out from their area, they should look for places I might like as well, since we'll be moving in. Unfortunately, they chose one of the dodgiest suburbs in Melbourne, Footscray, due to the rent being cheap. So if I don't reply, I was probably beaten to death/stabbed. So that's lovely news. <3
It struck me with a lot of stress, and I was kind of angry at them for a very long while. That was, until they suggested sparring (being in an apartment filled with manly d00ds results in some pretty masculine activities. i.e. fighting, talking about girls, arm wrestling, and trying to juggle hammers.) Anyway, I wasn't able to spar my friends well because I didn't want to hurt them, so I ended up competing with the one who practices it all the time.
I failed.
I failed a lot.
All my manly pride drained instantly as I was beaten down. ;A; Not a fun time for me, nonono. But at least I know that I'm weak instead of blindly rushing into physical contact with a false sense of strength. (Though he did mention I did better than expected. Though that was probably because I was angry from being punched in the face so many times an insisted on continuing to try punch his face).

Hmm...

No.
There doesn't seem to be much else going in my life at th-WAIT NO THERE'S THAT THING WITH THE GOVERNMENT FFFFU-. Ok. So in Australia we have this thing called Youth Allowance, which utilizes tax money to keep youth/students keeping afloat as long as they need it enough. Most of my friends here are just using their Youth Allowance to keep them afloat and to have some spare change for their own stuff. Meanwhile, my parents are funding me (so sweet of them, you have no idea how much gratitude I have for that holy shiznit I love them) so I can keep afloat over here. So I tried very hard to lift that burden by having some Youth Allowance on my side. Nope. I was rejected my claim for the third goddamn time for my parents not handing documents in time (because they're working every day you can submit it at the centre), and now they've started asking for ridiculous things I don't think my parents have. So, none. I've contemplated getting a job, but school pressures are getting kinda crazy, and working in a place like Footscray doesn't seem like the BEST idea. UGH. STRESS. HARD.
But we'll manage. I love my family and I trust them to tell me whenever they're finding it a bit difficult. I've told them I can move back any time.

But moving on from that, what else is there to talk about? Hmm.

There was that time I enetered a competition to win a Mass Effect 3 gun replica. You see, the aim was to design an amazing piece of armour for Shepard to wear. But the criteria was that it had to have the videogame store's logo on it somewhere (Remember this.) So I enter, and get a hell of a lot of likes. I beat a lot, if not all the competition. I want to win this for not only the gun, but for the Turtlebeach headset you get with it, which I needed due to mine breaking. Even if I won runner up I could still get one. But no. Not even runner up. AND THE WINNER DIDN'T EVEN USE THE GAME STORE LOGO. I ADMIT IT WAS GOOD, BUT IT HARDLY A FUNCTIONAL ARMOUR DESIGN, AND HARDLY FITS THE MASS EFFECT UNIVERSE AT ALL. BUT URGH. URGGGGHHHH. GODDAMN JUDG-you know what, I'm ranting. I'm ranting like an angry person. It is rant worthy, but I don't think you'd like me swearing about something that I could be wrong about. But seriously. Not even runner up. Some guy who stuck a flag looking thing on Shepard's armour was one of the runner ups. I can't even. I don't even know. I. What. How.
So yeah. Gotta go get myself a new headset with the limited money I have. Maybe not even get a replacement at all. Sucks. It was my birthday gift.

Anyway, uhhh..

I've recently discovered that I'm actually more easily amused than I thought. People tend to be all "UGH CALL OF DUTY SUCKS" or "COWBOY VS ALIENS WAS A TERRIBLE MOVIE AND NO ONE SHOULD EVER WATCH IT" where, to be honest, I found them fun. They had flaws, yes, but I enjoyed myself. And, I dunno, I guess I feel kind of stupid when people are looking at the deeper mechanics of the subject to conclude their judgements, whereas I just skim the surface. Do you guys ever feel like this? :C

On that note, I will list down some songs I think are really lovely and you can listen if you want.
Call Me Maybe - Carly Rae Jepsen (SO GODDAMN CATCHY HOLY WOW)
I Don't Like You - Eva Simons (DANCE DANCE DANCE itsactuallyquitenice)
Let Me Die in the Morning - Holy Oak (Kind of soothing. )
No it isn't - Plus 44 (Beautiful desructive poetry)
Feel So - Boxcar Racer (Angsty)
We Are Back (The S Remix) - The Boomzers (SO DANCEY, but only at the chorus. SO GUD THO)
Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine (I always have to refrain myself from singing the chorus. SO GOOD)

I don't believe there's anything much else to tell you. Life is pretty drab lately, but that's ok. At least it's not terrible.
Also, here's a blog of a beautiful chiseled Melbourne friend of mine. If you're a fan of handsome, skinny, formal-fashion boys, you should mingle around here. They often tell of my adventures with him. (P.S. My codename is Shadowfox. A nickname I had built for me because I jokingly introduced myself as "Shadowfox 69", and a very influential student was close enough to hear it.) LINK[link]

Anyway, I'm going to head off to sleep now. Goodnight, my sweets. <3

May the Winds of Fortune Form A Strong Gust Shaped Like A Fist And Then Uppercuts You Sending You Flying But Covered In Fortune,
Cheese

P.s. Watched Legend of Korra. SO GOOD. SOOO GOOOODDD. Expect Fan art. <3 Also played lots of Mass Effect 3. EXPECT FANART.

A lot of my friends feel upset over the fact that they're single on Valentine's Day, or Single Awareness Day. My question is, why? Valentine's Day is about love, but what is love? (Baby don't hurt me. Don't hurt me, no more.) In my experience, love is not holding hands and kissing. No, those are signs of affections. Mere symbols of their romantic interest in one another. Love, in my opinion, is a very high level of emotional acceptance and appreciation. Yes, you need love, my S.A.D. celebrators, but you want affection.

My sister had always told me, to love another, you must first love yourself (spoken like a true fortune cookie.) How are you able to know you're loved if you do not share your lover's beliefs? You will most likely fall under the trap of "I'm not good enough for her/him. They deserve someone else." So to all the S.A.D. people, look for love on Valentine's Day, but make sure it's for yourself before anyone else. No idea how? I'l give you a hint. Chocolates are on sale on Valentine's Day.

Treat yourself! Eat those delicious chocolates on sale. Why spend it on someone else if you know you'd love to eat it? Valentine's Day makes people feel warm and happy, so why don't you get to? Eat dem ice-creams, play dem videogames, eat dem favourite stuff. Today is about love. Begin to love yourself, enjoy how awesome you are, and everything will be bene.

That said, my Valentine's date is Liara T'Soni. <3

Reposted from my Tamblargh.



MY VALENTINE'S/AWESOME/I KICK ASS DAY PLAN.
Ok, so it wouldn't be fair if I said all that without doing any of it for myself. So I'll share with you what I have done so far, and what I plan to do.
>Plan an awesome day with best friend where we would stop trying to eat healthy for a day, and eat delicious but shitty food.
>He tells me we're gonna feel sick as shit, but it's going to be awesome.
>Go to sleep
>Wake up
>Start listening to awesome upbeat music
>Drink a Venti (Maximum) sized caramel frappuccino from Starbucks
>Feel sick
>Remember what best friend told me and laugh idiotically as I wander the streets of Melbourne
>Get a Double Crunch combo with a small pepsi and chips from KFC
>Feel sick again
>Eye a cute looking girl (Because I'm single and I can do that. Feelsgoodman.jpg)
>Order 2 packets of fun sized chocolates on sale
>Eating them at home, feeling awesome.
>Went to the early meet-up with Gunnarolla and Songs To Wear Pants To but I panicked and felt socially awkward so I didn't approach and went back. Feelsbatman.gif
>For dinner had a summer value meal at Hungry Jacks (The rest of the world calls them "Burger King".) Which was a small burger, frozen coke and chips. Feeling kind of sick.

WHAT I PLAN TO DO LATER:
>Play Mass Effect 3 Demo when it finally is uploaded in Australia
>Watch Gunnarolla and Songs To Wear Pants To going on their Australian tour
>Eat icecream
>Feel sick but awesome
>Share awesome stories with best friend

Like I said, friends. Valentine's can be great if you make it. As can any day, really.

Back in Melbourne and I'm already missing all my Perthian buddies. :c SADNESS OVERWHELMS MY BEING.

Anyway, I seem to be out of things to draw and paint. That's a lie, I feel like Mass Effect fanart, but I don't want to clog you guys with things you may not want to see. Maybe I should just do them in my free time anyway. Maybe.

School starts next week, and I'm kind of excited. It's nice to be in an environment with like minded gamers. <3 Some people are also looking forward to seeing if there are any cute girls in the new intake. To be honest, I kind of hope there will be, but I just know it's gonna be a sausage fest. Not that it's bad, as long as they aren't douchey poopsicles, I should be fine with all of them.

OO! This trimester I'll also be doing an intro to life drawing. >3 Hopefull skills will be improved. Hopefully.

Also, recently my school had a little bit of an exhibition of student's work, and I came second for best art. I checked out the winner though, and yes. I had no chance. This guy is a freelancer. A FREELANCER. WHY IS A FREELANCER GOING TO SCHOOL IN THE FIRST PLACE. xDD But yes, still feels nice to come second. <3

Mass Effect 3 demo is out soon too. My valentine's will be the demo. And Femshep. And Liara. Oh god Liara. <3

But anyways, I don't have much else to say. So. Hello. <3

May the Winds of Fortune Play With Your Hair a Little Then Smack You Down,
Cheese

And that boy's online identity was.. CHEESEBOY18193. 8I

First of all, thank you for all the birthday wishes on my profile. I don't know how you guys were able to tell it was my birthday, but naww you're so sweet. <3

Second of all, I'm 19 now, and I'm no where near where I wanted to be artistically. :C Still, I have plenty of years left in my life, and a bright future. <3
It is pretty scary to be 19 now, since 18 tends to be associated with high school. 19 just seems more mature and sensible. xD I will be forced into being more responsible and whatnot, due to me living alone in Melbourne, but I do hope I remain the person I've established myself to be. I'm quite fond of my current ways. xD

Anyways, here's to surviving another year! *clinks glass of orange juice*

May the Winds of Fortune Pierce Your Personal Barrier and Give You Goosebumps,
Cheese

If you are ever down, whether worried or depressed, here are some little observations I have made in my lifetime that may help you. Note that these are observations, I do not stand tall claiming that my beliefs are truest of all truths, they are merely things I've noticed and have integrated into my own beliefs.

1) An optimist and a pessimist will always call themselves a realist. Chances are, you aren't one. So instead of worrying about something you 'know will happen', realise that whatever you think will happen isn't the only way things can end up.

2) You will never know the future (unless you're a psychic who has proven time and time again that your predictions are always true. Then that's just impressive). The past has happened, it is recorded in your memory. The present is where your feet are standing. The future is a fogged empty space. Whichever path you walk, whatever action you take, you forge a new piece of the future, one that immediately becomes the present, and then the past. Therefore, a person who says to themselves "My life is spiralling downwards, I just know this and that will happen" is, in their mind, constructing a prediction, and image of the future, forged by opinion and reasoning. When you're upset, what you believe will happen is never set in stone. When you're upset, your "I-am-a-realist" side will tell you to panic, because a constructed image of reality is heading your way. Realize that the future is made of chance and reasoning, and that anything can happen. That image of the future you made up? Yeah. That's a picture of  the future you made up. It's not the future. Due to this, faith can always still be applied. Hope is always still valid. Instead of searching desperately what the face of the future is like, look at your feet, and walk whichever direction you want. You will create a path by walking one.


3) People who claim that no-one cares about their problems have most likely never asked someone to simply sit down and listen to them. A lot of the time, I have managed to help a lot of people through their hard times by simply asking what is wrong, and simply sitting down to listen. They tell me I've helped them greatly, but in reality, all I did was sit and listen. No, the person who helped them was themselves. Know why? They admitted themselves to seek help, to tell someone their problems. They allowed it, they helped themselves.

4) Seeking for help is not being weak, nor is crying. For some reason, people have begun to associate crying and/or calling out for help is weak, and therefore should be avoided. This is like telling a dog that continuously bites and electric fence that he shouldn't ask his pals how to get past the fence, and should instead keep biting until the fence has broken, so it can be a bigger dog and gain respect from his peers. How is that dog to know that there's a gate 7 metres from him? As for thinking crying is a weakness, that's just stupid. Imagine you just slapped a woman in the face because she was crying at her father's funeral. Now imagine you kicked a kid for crying when he fell off his bike and grazed his knee. Now imagine yourself punching yourself in the gut because of whatever you were last sad about. You're punishing yourself for letting out a plea for help, a signal of distress, and a release of emotion. You have reasons to cry, so cry. Be human. A million robots want what you have. Feelings. Sorrow is equally important to anger and happiness. Never be ashamed of crying. Never be ashamed to ask for help.

5) When you burst into a sudden deep depression but don't know the reason, it is most likely because it is more than one problem. The difficulty of this is that unlike a big and major problem, people often believe their smaller issues are not worth anything, or some kind of burden to people, and they keep them bottled up. Due to this, they essentially constantly blow air into an invisible balloon of problems. This is a big problem because they're like ninjas, they come out of nowhere, but hit you VERY hard. Realizing this, try to let someone know of your small issues. Talking it out is more helpful than you believe. And no, those small issues of yours are more dangerous than you think. It is most often not a burden at all to anyone to let them know.

I can't think of any more right now, but I think I have more. I'll update later if I think of any more, but these are pretty much the biggies.
Moral of the story: Don't be afraid to cry. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Stop looking for what will happen, look at what you can do.
In the wise words of the Assassin's; "Nothing is True. Everything is Permitted." Your worries of the future are not true. Any action you take to forge the future can be done. (Oh god it feels so good to apply Assassin's Creed to things)

Now, look at me in my virtual imagination-constructed face. You are doing well. Cry, laugh and scream. You're meant to.

Now, think of your friends and family. They are there for you.

Now, imagine them on a big spider web (Unless you hate spiders. Then imagine it's a trampoline.) Whatever you do will affect them. When you're happy, they should and will know it. When you're down, they should and will feel it.

Now, imagine my virtual face again (If you'd like, give me a super hot body, but make sure it doesn't distract you from what I'll say next). By reading this super long post, you've demonstrated that you care about being a better person. By doing so, you have proven to be an amazing one. If you're smiling right now, look at yourself in the mirror. That person that you see is why people would love to help you. Why people love being with you, and why you are an amazing person. You are a shining star.



Have an amazing day/night. <3

Hey guys~ so, I can't say much due to me being on my iPod as I type this, hence the typos. Anyways, just making a journal to explain my absence. You see, me and my family have gone to Malaysia for a week as a little holiday, something We haven't done as a family in years. though I was born in Australia, my parents are both from malacca, Malaysia, do its pretty interesting to be with them when they return home. Lots of heap add things here, so as a Christmas present, my parents gave the kids $500 pocket money, which is slowly depleting the more shopping malls we go to. xD the weather is humid and hot, as it's summer all year, but I'm coping. <3

But anyways, imma head off now. Just letting you know where I've been.

May the Winds of Fortune Attack Your Lungs,
-cheese

Hey guys~

Sorry I haven't updated you guys in a while! I've been playing Skyrim and catching up with my Perth friends. Which reminds me.
I'm back in Perth. <3

It's a nice feeling to go back home. <3 And, you know, not suffering from incurable "I'm a uni student with no money" syndrome. It's terrible, really.
As a gift, my sister ~kpplouski bought me Skyrim to welcome me home. <3 (It's a goddamn fantastic game. So damn good. Oh god so good.)

There really isn't much to say. :c Everything is pretty much the same, other than the transportation of me across the country. Really, I thought I just owed an explanation as to why I haven't uploaded anything in a while. I've also got a bit of an art block, so that's kinda poop. I'll see what I can do. :3

Anyways, I'm running out of things to say now. So... Toodles~

May the Winds of Fortune Eat Your Oxygen and Replace It With More,
Cheese

Adding a new journal because a friend told me to. I was all "but no-one wants to hear about my life" and they were all "OF COURSE THEY DO" so I am making one. I've also been told to make an essay about my adventures in Melbourne so far and whatnot.

So here it goes.

Things are starting to be ok in Melbourne. I now face only two problems; school assignments and financial issues.
I include school assignments in there because for a long time, I haven't done anything remotely assignment related, so I'm a bit stressed about getting back into the groove. Plus my fear of failure means I always have to get a high mark or I feel like the poop. Some of these assignments include 3d modelling, which I have never done before. Ever. I've been told I'm doing ok, but still, I'd like to do better.

Which reminds me! I've changed majors. Instead of Games Design, I'm heading towards Animation. Main reason? I pulled a derp move and didn't realize game design literally meant the design of games. Nono, it wasn't the look and feel of videogames I was learning about, but the way a game is constructed and marketed. Yeah. So I quickly dived into the Animation major instead, where 3d art is the biggest focus, but atleast I get to do some form of concept art. <3

Anyways, back on track.
My second problem is financial issues. Good lord living alone burns money. Even though I'm not paying for rent (Thank god. I love you mum and dad!) I'm just burning money so fast. ;A; I recently complained about this to my sister, which of course resulted me from making forced sacrifices. I have been banned from:
* Eating out. I must now make my own food.
* Buying any videogames (Yes, this means no Skyrim and no Assassin's Creed.)
I've been trying to make my own food as much as I can, but I can't obey it 100%. I wouldn't have anything for lunch when I'm at school otherwise. The banning from buying videogames has hit me hard though. It's an easy one to follow through with, but GOSH EVERYONE IS MAKING ME FEEL BAD FOR NOT HAVING SKYRIM. I SWEAR I'M BEING BULLIED IN MY OWN SCHOOL (gaming unis have their own rules. xD) but I'm getting by.

What else is there to talk about..

Hmm.

Starting to get a bit lonely. I don't have family, close friends or pets to come home to, so I'm feeling pretty sad with not being loved. But I'm getting by I suppose. This problem only just started occuring, so I'll wait to see if it's going anywhere. xD

Umm..



Commissions? $30 for a coloured painting, $20 for a black and white, $10 for a sketch. $10 extra for each character addition.


Yep, I think I'm done. Nothing much is happening.

Let me know if you guys want me to start making more journals!


May the Winds of Fortune Punch You in the Face with Almighty Gust,
Cheese

Here now!


BUT IT'S SCARY AS HELL.

Thank god it wasn't like, and entirely different country, or I would be lost as all hell right now.
I'm in the new student apartment, but I'm feeling a little claustrophobic due to how absolutely tiny it is. I was not expecting a 2x2.5m bedroom to be titled "Master Bedroom".

But seriously? I'm scared. Very scared.

I hardly know anyone, I'm being put in a small area to live with a stranger, I need to get my own things to eat and cook my own dinners, it's just... It's so alien to me. If my sisters were here, she'd breeze through everything. Being the youngest, I was always given the easy way out. I just.. don't understand what to do.

I'm scared. Frightened. Confused.

Hopefully things will get better.


In other news, I haven't been on DA lately due to preparing for Melbourne, I haven't been art-ing for the same reason.
I'm uncertain on when I'll be able to get back on track with that either. I have yet to experience the level of workload from uni, and I don't have my timetables yet. I've borrowed some internet usb from a friend to help me get on facebook and chat with friends, but I don't have much quota on here.  I will most definitely have to cut down on the downloads.

Anyways, just updating on you guys. This is a tough time for me, and I hope you guys understand.

(end journal in sad tone)

May the Winds of Fortune Lift Us Both in the Air and Twirl Us Around,
-Cheeseboy

Ok, so I was unable to provide you guys with 2 paintings this week (I always leave the second one for the last day, goddammit) , and it got me thinking as to what I should do for a punishment.
So I've come up with the idea that I should upload a new tutorial on youtube everytime I mess up. xD

What would you guys like me to make a tutorial about next? Suggestions?


Also, thank you for all your help in the last journal, I was very thankful for the advice. I picked what most of you chose, which is going to Melbourne, and I will be heading there in early September. <3

EDIT: Here it is. Human Features. Just a small tutorial on little things people might have trouble drawing when drawing people.
[link]

Also, another one I did for fun. <3 A tutorial of the small differences between a woman body and a male body. [link]

Also, I forgot to mention, my facebook page! [link]

Hey guys, I need your help with something. I'm about to write a long post and I want you to read it all and tell me your opinion. This decision I'm going to have to make is one that will open a new chapter in my life, but I'm uncertain what to do.
To make this decision, you need to know the context of the situation. This has been troubling me for quite a while now.

Ok, so first of all, I live in a place called Perth. It's in the western part of Australia and is a very small but peaceful city. The kind of city you'd raise a family in. Compared to the eastern side of Australia, it's like a baby city. It's missing a lot of cultural happenings and whatnot. In fact, the people who live in Perth even joke about how tiny and insignificant it is on Facebook. But I digress.
I was born and raised here. Made lots of friends and pretty much settled in. However, I've always loved the city life, and Perth doesn't have much of one.

When I graduated from my high school, there was a uni advertised on the back of Game Informer magazines that specializes in Games related courses (as well as Audio and Film) called Qantm College. However, when I checked online, I discovered that they didn't have a campus in Perth, only in the Eastern side of Perth (You get used to that happening). So, I planned to move to Melbourne, an eastern city that my family friend happens to live in, so I can be taken care of. It was a uni that specialized in these things, so I would have a better chance of being selected into the industry, and Melbourne was a more art cultural place, I would definitely improve my work over there. If I didn't get in, I would just consider that a gap year, and instead, go to some other uni in Perth.
Months later, I discover that there IS a Qantm in Perth, but it still didn't list the course I wanted to do (Bachelor of Interactive Entertainment with a Major in Games Design). I said "Ok, well I guess my plan is still valid."
Many months later, nearing to now, I discover that there is now the course I wanted to do available in Perth. By now I've already gotten used to the idea of being in Melbourne. So I tell myself "Ok, I'll still stick to my plan. Melbourne is where things are happening and it is where I want to be."
A month before the present; I have already applied to the uni in Melbourne, but I have not yet heard a response. I'm getting anxious and worried now. I wait and wait for a letter of offer, but I'm not getting anything. It's getting close to September now (the month I supposedly start) and I'm getting worried.
July; People are asking questions and my family is getting slightly angry that I've set up a place to stay, but don't even know if I'm accepted. I'm scared. Scared sh*tless.
A week or two ago; Qantm Perth has an open night thing to promote their school. I attend to merely ask questions and get more details such as dates and times. Instead, I meet a student there of whom I was a good friend with in high school. She tries to convince me to stay in Perth, and I'm getting nervous. "Look, I know why you want to go to Perth. I understand. Perth's pretty much a black hole. But why do you want to go? We have the same course here, same equipment, and a smaller class for more personal questions." I'm still nervous about this idea (I'm uncertain how long these teachers have been teaching the course, first of all), but I'm swaying back and forth between what I want. "Look, if you want, you can come to Perth first, and transfer into Melbourne later. It's free to do so." Good idea. It becomes my new plan. I go back home and tell my family. Everyone is seemingly heading towards this idea.

Skip to now.

I've just received the Letter of Offer from Melbourne Qantm.

And my plan just fell to pieces.

I'm uncertain again. I don't know what to do.

Right now I'm heading towards taking that offer. I mean, the plan I made last, it can go both ways. I can start in Perth, end in Melbourne. I can also start in Melbourne, and if it doesn't end up very well for me, transfer back.

What's your opinion, my friends? I'd like an unbiased opinion about this for once.

May the Winds of Fortune Blow on Both of Our Faces,
Cheese

Hey guys! I got some good news and bad news.

Good news is, a friend on DA told me that I should make a tutorial or something about how I paint, and I thought it was a good idea. I don't have much fancy equipment, but I threw together a little something that might just do the trick of helping you.

The bad news is, I have a naturally deep voice and I was also very nervous doing this, so I sound pretty much like a depressed aussie teen who stutters all the time.

Keep in mind, however, that these are techniques and methods only. The only way to improve your drawings are to observe and draw. Observe why and how things look the way they do, and draw over and over to stick the idea in your brain. <3

LINK FOR VIDEO IS LE HERE~ Go High Resolution so you can see the words on the screen. <3
[link]

Here is the .psd file so you can observe and understand better!
[link]

Leave a comment with what you think I should teach about next (and maybe how to improve) xD

Since I was always whining about how much time I have to spend overthinking (NOT a good thing), my friend suggested I give myselft short term goals/challenges. One of which that was assigned is a fitness thing (I'm overweight and poopy. :c) and another involved art.

The challenge is that I must paint 2 images every week, with the weeks starting Monday, and ending Sunday. (Monday comes afterwaarrrrrds. Yes I throw around a lot of Rebecca Black jokes)

Even though I will be challenging myself to do this, I will not be accepting requests. If I did that, no-one will commission me, and I will end up poor, sad, and alone. But suggestions can be made, I suppose.

If I do not complete the challenge in the given week.. Well.. I haven't really thought about that. What should be my punishment?



IN OTHER NEWS

HOMG E3 I LOVE E3 OMG GEEZUZ MASS EFFECT 3 HAS GOT ME SO PUMPED AND EXCITED AND ALIVE AND SO HAS DARKNESS 2 AND ASSASSIN'S CREED REVELATIONS AND FFF I AM EXCITED.


IN OTHER OTHER NEWS

Commissions are indeed open, and the prices are:

$30 For a full art piece.

$20 for a black and white piece.

$10 for a sketch.

And I totally did not intend for it to go down in tens. So that's totally rad and easy to remember~


EXTRA WORDS FROM THE CHEESE

Nothing much else to say right now. I've booked a place to live in Melbourne, so any Melbournians should talk to me so I have friends before I get there. <3 It's gonna be a sort of Homestay, but not, due to the fact that they are not complete strangers. I haven't got any word on my acceptance into my desired uni though, which has me worried. I'd hate to have to cancel all these plans. :/

Other than that, my life is pretty hollow. Still going with the Parkour-ing. Got a lot more scars now, but I'm getting better. xD
Trying to learn how to use perspectives, but it's proving difficult without a teacher. Wanting to get into making backgrounds, but again, perspectives is not a skill of mine yet.
Still feeling kinda isolated in my new house, due to a no school environment and my lack of ability to socialize.
My hair's grown back to normal lengths, and is now socially acceptable. [link]
Working on my 20 hour painting challenged by `arvalis, but it's proving difficult. It includes the use of perspective, btw, that's why. It also is sort of an homage to Mirror's Edge.
Got my new laptop from the insuranceness.. Though I think I already mentioned this. It's an ASUS N53SV, incase you want to know. Photoshop and Painter only lag when painting very huge paintings while using something heavy like itunes at the same time.


That reminds me, if you're still here, you should try installing a program called Dropbox. It creates a folder in your computer which, when you put things in it, uploads your files onto a website, and from there, uploads to any other computers with a dropbox and that account signed in. For me, it's useful because it can not only transfer from pc to laptop easily, but if my laptop gets stolen again or something, I won't lose my valuable files inside. One thing though, if this is what you want, please click this link (   [link] to acquire it. Doing so will result in both of us getting more space in our folders.

Anyways I think.. I think that's it. Have a nice day, my friends!

May the Winds of Fortune Blow Like A Gust of Sex,
-Cheese

I am deeply apologetic for the trouble I caused with my last journal. I didn't mean to offend anyone, and I did it when I had a moody morning. ;A; I apologize for anyone I may have angered.

So, in an attempt to remove it from my front page, HAHA! A new journal that is almost completely pointless~

I decided to talk about commissions on this one, because I haven't in a while.

Commissions are indeed open, and the prices are:

$30 For a full art piece.

$20 for a black and white piece.

$10 for a sketch.

And I totally did not intend for it to go down in tens. So that's totally rad and easy to remember~

The reasons I upped the prices a bit is because now with my use of rendering and stuff, it takes a lot more time and a lot more effort to complete a painting. Also, the whole "Pay me by how much time I spend on it" thing was too annoying to set up (I don't have a stop watch), and it made me often rush paintings. I hope this way is much more convenient, and I hope the prices don't discourage you.
If you want to cheapen the price, just ask for an easier style, such as "black and white, no rendering" so it's a lot easier for me to do, and you don't need to pay as much. <3

Note me if you're interested, since I collect commission info in the folders~ <3



ALSO! ADVICE ADVICE ADVICE. My sister is giving me serious chats about my career as an artist. She thinks I should start handing out business cards, because I am apparently at a somewhat professional level. Which I was all "PFFFT, WHAAAT?" to. But what do you guys think? Professionalism time for The Cheese? Still an amateur? Get business cards anyways because it's fun to hand them out to strangers? Let me know in the comment section below. <3

Also, I may be sharing a little gallery opening with my art friends sometime near the end of May. Should I do it? D: MORE ADVICE PLEASE. <3

Also, I apologize if my latest picture reminded people on a personal level. I didn't think that through, and I'm very sorry. :/

Also, I love ice-cream.

May The Winds of Fortune Make You a Not Of Huge Success,
-Cheese

Last night I painted in my new picture, Sleep With My Heart Awake, and I was kinda proud of it. I wanted to hear what people thought about it, so I refreshed over and over, but I didn't get any comments. I looked around and found that it had 12 favourites already, but no comments yet. I thought that maybe if I slept and checked again the next morning, more people would see (Since, you know, the majority of my watchers are Americans, and their time zone is different). I check it now and I only have 4 comments, but FREAKING 41 FAVOURITES. COME ON GUYS. ;A; If you can't comment on it, why make it one of your favourite pictures?

I know these journals about favouriting but not commenting has been done so many times before, but it starts to get ridiculous when you have enough favourites for it to be a popular picture, but hardly any comments on it.


*deep breath*


Well anyways, I hope you have a good day today~


EDIT:
Good day, fellow friends! I apologise for this journal entry because I clearly hadn't thought this through enough, which was totally stupid of me and I am sorry. I didn't mean to hate on people who don't comment for reasons such as lack of time or lack of words ( I didn't think about it because I was angry in the morning. Sorry about that. D: ), I was just saddened by the idea of people treating the "favourite" system as if it was a simple "like" system, if you know what I mean. Say, youtube. There are three options: comment, like, and favourite. Since DeviantArt has yet to establish a like system, people tend to use the favourite system to do that. And I always thought the favourite system was always there not only to collect your absolute FAVOURITE images, but also as an indicator to an artist on how many people truly loved the artwork. I hope this doesn't offend anyone, but what disappoints me is the degradation of the word "favourite". THAT'S what this journal was originally about. I'm sorry I didn't make that clear.

Also, I apologise if this actually makes things worse. I was always bad at thinking before I speak. >.>

May the Winds of Fortune Shoot Rainbows Down Your Veins,
Cheeseboy

HEY GUYS~

I keep forgetting to update for you, so I'll post it last minute (That's how I roll, y'all).

Tomorrow, 2nd of April, 2011, I will be participating in the Youth Markets in Perth selling my art. I haven't actually worked out what I'm actually going to be doing, if my art is worth selling (This is drawings, btw. Not digital painting. Sorry, bro~) and the pricing. But I will be there nonetheless. <3
The place will be here "[link]", and it goes through 10am – 4pm. There is no cost, so you can be chillin' and checking out everyone else's wares. <3  I hear there will be some music playin' and all these other fun happenings, so GO GO GO.

I don't know how many of you guys are actually from Perth, but if you can come along, we can totally chat and I can have conversations and it'd be rad.

This is the part where I talk about what I'm selling fo cereals:
I don't actually know what to sell, but I do know that I'll be bringing along some sketchbooks. I think I'll price drawings $1 a page. Obviously, there are some dodgy ones I never finished, but I'll stick them in anyways so it looks like I'm a busy artist. xD If you're indeed a fan of my work, you'll know most of my artworks start off with drawings in my sketchbook, so if you find a particular favourite, you can totally buy the original sketch. <3 You might even find some unfinished ones that you like. A LOT of drawings I made don't actually make it to digital painting. I think I'll sell my sketchbooks as a whole for $25 in case anyone totally digs my artwork enough to want the whole damn book with dodgy ewy sketches. xD And hey, if no-one buys my sketchbooks, I might sell them online if you guys are interested. xD I was thinking about that for a while now, actually. <3
Oh, and I'll be selling a few masks (the ones I can find again) and some traditional paintings I did. If you guys ever wanted a vampiric self portrait of me, I got one of those too. <3 I think I'll sell them for the same price of a sketchbook. Maybe. <3

If my prices sounds iffy, comment below and tell me how much I should sell them for. I personally don't like my sketches very much, but that's me~ <3

Oh, and apologies in advance. These sketchbooks are very personal to me, as they follow my life. With them, you could probably tell a lot about who I was. I'll have a phase for anime and manga, a phase for being in love, a phase for being heartbroken, a phase for being lonely, etc. If you're into that kinda stuff, go ahead and buy~

I doubt anyone'd buy anything, and I'm mostly looking forward to this because it allows me to meet some lovely DA friends. <3 I hope you can make it!

EDIT.
JUST HAD IT AND IT WAS SO AMAZING I HAD THE BESTEST TIME EVER. It started off a bit intimidating, because everyone wanted me to draw them, but I don't work well under pressure. xD This was the worst, some man (forty-something) came up to me and asked me why I drew evil. I answered "Because it's fun" and I assumed he meant why I drew monsters and stuff. He gave me a disapproving look and I realized he was actually looking at this ([link] sketch. I THEN realized he must've seen the little upside down satanic look star carved in Wormwood's head. I tried to explain it was fanart, but he just walked away. I was all "Oh boy, what if everyone's like this?" ;A;

BUT I WAS PROVED WRONG.

Everyone was so fantastic~ People actually debated that I charged too low, and actually paid me more because they thought I deserved it. <3 What kind people~ I eventually had to do more portraitures, but I felt less nervous about it than at first, so that was lovely. <3 I ended up selling most of my sketchbooks, with only my crap quality sketchbooks and one decent sketchbook left. I managed to raise like.. over $200. It was amazing.
My friends attended, and I had the greatest time. I met up with friends I haven't seen since art camp, with a couple of them singing beautifully. There was a FRIGGIN BAND THAT PLAYED MICHAEL JACKSON AND I COULDN'T HELP BUT LEAVE MY STALL AND MOONWALK AND ALL. AND THEN. AND THEN THERE WAS A JAZZ BAND THAT WORE SUITS AND AVIATORS. NO, LITERALLY. THEY DID AWESOME COVERS AND EVEN A JAZZ VERSION OF BRITNEY SPEARS' "TOXIC". I COULD NOT STOP CLICKING MY FINGERS. AND THE BASS GUITAR PLAYER WAS SO AWESOME. HE WAS SO INTO IT, ALWAYS WEARING SUNGLASSES AND JAMMING ALONG ENTHUSIASTICALLY IT WAS AWESOME.
A couple of nice girls I met also fricken bought like.. 3 of my sketchbooks. I hear they were totally into my creepy monster drawings. xD There was also a very awesome man who paid twice as much for a sketchbook as well. Jesus, there were so many awesome people. <3 A big shoutout to my friends who came and met up with me, making my day amazing (dancing and singing with me. <3) and a bigger shoutout to my fans who may have seen me but didn't introduce themselves. </3

This reminds me.

I feel bad that not many of my sketchbooks survived the stall raiding, so I'm thinking of not only selling one of my sketchbooks online, but giving one of them away to my fans. <3 Not sure how I'll make it a fair competition, though. But do you guys think that's a cool idea? <3 Let me know~

Anyways, I think that just about sums it up. Thanks for a great day, and thanks for your support. <3 Apologies to those who couldn't make it due to some strange reason, the most common being the sea. Hopefully I can somehow set up an online store and you can purchase a couple of things someday. We'll see. <3






I think that's all I had to say, anyways.

May The Winds of Fortune Slap You In The Mouth and Stroke Your Back For Some Reason,
The Cheese